Monday, July 31, 2006
10:53 PM
"LIMSIEWYING! I LOVE YOU :Dand suddenly, I feel sad that I am going to leave you soon :'( although sometimes you make me really angry >.< but you are always my best junior! (you are my only junior.) and yah (: thank you for always laughing at my jokes cause even I think it's not funny.
WO HAO AI NI O! ((:" -JASMINE TAN.haha. AWW SO SWEET! jasmine! i love you too! haha. and im sorry for all the times i made you angry. i realised that most of the times i was being very insensitive to others around me. sorry. ): and i will practiced harder for bass! yes haha! LOVES. (:yay that entry really cheered me up. cause i felt damn shit just now. why? cause this week is week 6. and what do we have?monday: - tuesday: chinese culture test.wednesday: history testthursday: science testfriday: chinese testdamn shit please. im so screwed for history. i cant understand a single thing please? and tmr's the stupid spinal checkup and im going to miss band exchange. ): I MISS BANDD. zhen3 me4 ban4. i feel very down. like what clara says, "there's an input but no output for all the stress." like wth. my dad's still trying to ban blogs fom my com lah. another output gone. what do i have left? band, music and talking. but talking helps no more. and IM NOT ALLOWED TO LISTEN TO MUSIC AT HOME. thanks arh. rawrr. im damn stressed out. yet i feel very helpless. i dunno why. why?oh thanks sok for helping me with the wire hearts. I LOVE YOU! haha. drama is quite screwed to me. im a MAID. im soggay's maid. but im treated REALLY NICE. yeah man. but our scripts not even done editing yet. SCREWED. i should learn to let go.yet i have a feeling i shouldnt.all the times we had together were just memories now. yet i want to live them again.
Saturday, July 29, 2006
11:17 PM
what is your freaking problem?
get one signature from you so difficult, ask so many questions like im going to use your signature to extort money like that. ask to go for workshop, at first say can, then afterwards say cannot. compulsory also dont let me go. sign one form to pay for cca you must critisize band until like that isit? sorry lah i love band cannot isit?
seriously what is your problem?
stupid. i really didnt mean to break down in front of shaun ding and sok yesterday. sorry. ): but they were really nice about it. thanks for all your care and concerns.
i really dunno why i broke down over such a small little thing that happens to me almost every single day. i think it was because everything that i've experienced throughout yesterday, all the emotions that were kept inside just broke free.
especially the emotion i had after the bitching session with kexin. pissed and the loss of hope.
and shaun tho! sorry i didnt bring anything for your performance yesterday! im really sorry. ): i felt damn guilty especially when you guys changed your mood and atmosphere after i broke down. im so sorry! i really didnt mean to affect your moods too. sorry... but army daze was good. haha! the gay guy damn pro lah!!! (: sok says he's cute. but that sounded damn wrong and i was damn shocked after that.
then shaun ding and sok were nice enough to wait with me for 67 then they alighted at KAP while i went home.
THANKYOU SHAUN THO, TAN DING JIE AND LEE SOK KHOONG. (:yay I AM VERY TOUCHED. (: saw that sok?
slept really late last night and woke up damn early with swollen eyes. and today was just another screwed day. i took dinner at 10.30 p.m. -.-"
BLANK SIEWYING HAS TO COMPLETE THE FOLLOWING BY TODAY:
-lit circle
-lit speech
-lit ppt -geog sia
-hist assignment
-readers' theatre
-jaqson's last stack of maths worksheets. 87 pages.
BLANK SIEWYING HAS TO COMPLETE THE FOLLOWING BY MONDAY:
-study history
-study science
-study chinese culture
-do maths for ms yeo
yay im so dead. tonight no need to sleep le.
Friday, July 28, 2006
12:39 AM
i think im damn affected by this whole damn thing. i dunno why. im really down like dunno what. even crapping with sok which happened to help much on monday didnt work for me from tues onwards.
sok= self entertainment
please note the word SELF. it's no wonder im not amused anymore. no offense sok. im sorry if i've affected your mood. im really off lately, dont mind me.
i keep having these dreams about strange stuff. i guess im haunted. and painful memories just keep flowing back.
ky says that he thinks tmr's army daze is a full house already. ): zhen3 me4 ban4?
i dont know why i cry for nonsensical reasons nowadays. to think back, it's pretty amusing. but the pain hurt alot.
look what you've done.it's no wonder why we dont talk anymore.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
8:05 PM
yay im listening to PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN now!
i LOVE LOVE LOVE "TO THE PIRATE'S CAVE", "the medallion calls", "he's a pirate." TO THE PIRATE'S CAVE DAMN NICE LAH! i love the beginning part. it just builds up to the very very very high climax and comes down, then builds up again. damn nice! trumpets, horns, violins, tubas, trombones and percussion part damn nice! but not easy. i hear a piano part inside too. damn nice and exciting please! (: LOVES. yay! love the way how the different parts of different instrus coordinate and come together to play as one symphony. damn nice please! you can feel the passion! (:
yay i love band! yeah you know, ONE BAND ONE SOUND. (: tres loves.
it's kinda sad to know that WE as SEC 2s came in ONE YEAR LATER and missed out all the fun the band had with pirates of the caribbean during appassionata IIX ): and i think our potential SYF piece is what, PIRATES DREAMS. SO CLOSE. yet so different. pirates dreams is quite boring compared to pirates of the caribbean please. ohwells.
yay! im still quite high!
i wanna go army daze! ):
oh and i realised hui juan likes "where'd you go" by fort minor too! i guess loads of people love it cause of the nice percussion background rhythm. (: see how important percussion is?
Monday, July 24, 2006
10:41 PM
i feel really overwhelmed. i'd really trade tmr for saturday once more.
clara:
you still pia-ing hw?
clara:
aye nvm just to let you know that i'll be here if you ever need me don't get too tired and just let go of some stuff though it hurts to do so but you'll feel better later
but i cant. i cant let go. letting it go would make it seem final.
urrgh why am i so depressed over this stupid thing?
anyway, the highlights of nanyang glitters.
HAIYOOO. i think mellissa damn funny! (: cause we were watching youtube stuff in the green room. then we saw this video on this crazy singer trying to sing hokkien. THEN MELLISSA YEO WAS DAMN AMUSED BY IT. she kept laughing like siao and i was like : "what's going on? why you so amused by it?"
haha. then we watched the video on first love by the alumni during appassionata x on youtube as a band too. yay so nice!
haha! vera shaw has long legs! (:
oh then hui juan mellissa patricia jiaying and all of us were amused by the "dont laugh in school in japan" video! the japanese guy went "1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. 18 19, TEN TEN. TEN TEN ONE, TEN TEN TWO..." then thirty was TEN TEN TEN. and hundred was TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN. damn funny lah.
oh chai jiaying can carry 6 horns at once! SO COOL RIGHT.
yay! i think christal and eugenia very pro at making up. christal could curl her eyelashes EIGHT TIMES lah. a normal person can only curl 3 times?!!? omg her eyelashes DAMN LONG. haha! then she go and put mascara somemore. damn scary lah!
then i realised that CHERYL the horns junior very pro at make up too! why? cause she plays with make up at home. -.- i was like "cheryl! how to put this? what to put next? omg why is this so sticky! HELP ME PUT! " and stuff. damn tragic lah. asking a junior to help me put. damn loser.
I TELL YOU. MAKE UP IS DAMN GROSS. liangzhen was like running away from christal and patricia had to force her into the seat to get her make up done. then hui juan was USING ME AS A GUINEA PIG for putting mascara. damn sticky lah! but i think she did quite a nice job.
we were stoning alot before concert. DAMN SIAN LAH. alot of people were photowhoring and exploring the whole thing. OH OH. THE CONCERT HALL WAS LINKED TO THE THEATRE HALL. SO WE GOT TO SEE CABARET PEOPLE. (: haha! oh then THE LIFE DAMN BIG LAH. it was about more than 4 times the size of a normal lift. or maybe 6. but damn big! all our percussion stuff put inside the lift still got space left lah. haha! then the drinks damn ex!
then pat damn funny lah! she was very urgent to go to the toilet then her voice went all high and comical and she started PHOTOWHORING in the toilet. -.- waliao. then got this small boy in the girls toilet. THEN WE VERY AMUSED BY HIM. cause he told his teacher that he took one hour to do his business. then hui juan laughed like siao. haha!
then we went back to the esplanade mall and photowhored with every thing there. damn funny lah! (: check out the other blogs for photos. (:
one hour before the concert it was like rush hour. rush to tune instrus, rush to touch up make up, rush to rose bow, rush to SPRAY HAIR GLITTER. everything. then had breifing somemore. backstage one hour before the concert start lah. then we were very anxious and hugging each other like siao. yay! i hugged hui juan, jasmine, tianhui, jasmine, sabrina, vera, and loads of other people i forgot. HEH. OH OH EUGENIA! eugenia was the last person to hug me! (: CAUSE JASMINE TAN DIDNT WANT TO HUG ME. in the wings jasmine was singing "NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU." then i was like what the?! haha. damn random. then eugenia was like "the last complain im going to hear at my last concert- JASMINE DONT WANT TO HUG ME!" haha! that complain was from me lah. then we were adjusting scarfs and stuffs.
7.30 CONCERT STARTED. i think we did great. except for some screw ups. but HEY. WE DID GREAT.
haha. then after our item we went back to artist louge and watch the rest of the concert. i think the strings and the co were very nice! very grand! the nyps kids SO CUTE! we were all screaming in the artist louge"SO CUTE! SO CUTE!" then mellissa was like: "RELAX MAN! THEY'RE JUST KIDS!" -.- waliao. damn amused by her lah. then haha! after the co me pat lorriane and jannabel rushed out on stage to carry perc instrus THEN WE REALISED THAT IT WASNT THE INTERMISSION YET. then gary tang was like" what are you'all doing on stage! get off the stage!" oh man! damn malu lah! =x
then after intermission we went back to school. on the bus mellissa hui juan jasmine jiaying and i were damn high. we kept singing rubbish. then mellissa damn freaked out by jasmine cause jasmine decided to love mellissa. HAHA.
after shifting percussion instrus me jasmine and hui juan went to kap to have supper. then we kept bitching about stuffs. haha. OH OH. guo chang is going to be our band teacher in charge next year. the "MR CANNOT-CLOSE-HIS-MOUTH GUY." damn funny lah! cause i keep mixing him up with mr lim kok boon which is the "MR CANNOT-OPEN-HIS-MOUTH GUY." damn funny lah! then we kept laughing like siao for like 5-10 minutes NON STOP. then everybody in kap were like staring at us lah. omg damn amusing. haha!
yay i think our seniors damn nice. but passing down's coming and im going to miss sec 4s real soon. oh man. thinking back i guess i've been very mean to clara cause i always never say hi to her. =x im so sorry clara i would TRY not to do it again. ): and yes thanks for being there for me ALWAYS. (:
yay i love nycb! (: cheers!
10:41 PM
i feel really overwhelmed. i'd really trade tmr for saturday once more.
clara:
you still pia-ing hw?
clara:
aye nvm just to let you know that i'll be here if you ever need me don't get too tired and just let go of some stuff though it hurts to do so but you'll feel better later
but i cant. i cant let go. letting it go would make it seem final.
urrgh why am i so depressed over this stupid thing?
anyway, the highlights of nanyang glitters.
HAIYOOO. i think mellissa damn funny! (: cause we were watching youtube stuff in the green room. then we saw this video on this crazy singer trying to sing hokkien. THEN MELLISSA YEO WAS DAMN AMUSED BY IT. she kept laughing like siao and i was like : "what's going on? why you so amused by it?"
haha. then we watched the video on first love by the alumni during appassionata x on youtube as a band too. yay so nice!
haha! vera shaw has long legs! (:
oh then hui juan mellissa patricia jiaying and all of us were amused by the "dont laugh in school in japan" video! the japanese guy went "1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. 18 19, TEN TEN. TEN TEN ONE, TEN TEN TWO..." then thirty was TEN TEN TEN. and hundred was TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN TEN. damn funny lah.
oh chai jiaying can carry 6 horns at once! SO COOL RIGHT.
yay! i think christal and eugenia very pro at making up. christal could curl her eyelashes EIGHT TIMES lah. a normal person can only curl 3 times?!!? omg her eyelashes DAMN LONG. haha! then she go and put mascara somemore. damn scary lah!
then i realised that CHERYL the horns junior very pro at make up too! why? cause she plays with make up at home. -.- i was like "cheryl! how to put this? what to put next? omg why is this so sticky! HELP ME PUT! " and stuff. damn tragic lah. asking a junior to help me put. damn loser.
I TELL YOU. MAKE UP IS DAMN GROSS. liangzhen was like running away from christal and patricia had to force her into the seat to get her make up done. then hui juan was USING ME AS A GUINEA PIG for putting mascara. damn sticky lah! but i think she did quite a nice job.
we were stoning alot before concert. DAMN SIAN LAH. alot of people were photowhoring and exploring the whole thing. OH OH. THE CONCERT HALL WAS LINKED TO THE THEATRE HALL. SO WE GOT TO SEE CABARET PEOPLE. (: haha! oh then THE LIFE DAMN BIG LAH. it was about more than 4 times the size of a normal lift. or maybe 6. but damn big! all our percussion stuff put inside the lift still got space left lah. haha! then the drinks damn ex!
then pat damn funny lah! she was very urgent to go to the toilet then her voice went all high and comical and she started PHOTOWHORING in the toilet. -.- waliao. then got this small boy in the girls toilet. THEN WE VERY AMUSED BY HIM. cause he told his teacher that he took one hour to do his business. then hui juan laughed like siao. haha!
then we went back to the esplanade mall and photowhored with every thing there. damn funny lah! (: check out the other blogs for photos. (:
one hour before the concert it was like rush hour. rush to tune instrus, rush to touch up make up, rush to rose bow, rush to SPRAY HAIR GLITTER. everything. then had breifing somemore. backstage one hour before the concert start lah. then we were very anxious and hugging each other like siao. yay! i hugged hui juan, jasmine, tianhui, jasmine, sabrina, vera, and loads of other people i forgot. HEH. OH OH EUGENIA! eugenia was the last person to hug me! (: CAUSE JASMINE TAN DIDNT WANT TO HUG ME. in the wings jasmine was singing "NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU." then i was like what the?! haha. damn random. then eugenia was like "the last complain im going to hear at my last concert- JASMINE DONT WANT TO HUG ME!" haha! that complain was from me lah. then we were adjusting scarfs and stuffs.
7.30 CONCERT STARTED. i think we did great. except for some screw ups. but HEY. WE DID GREAT.
haha. then after our item we went back to artist louge and watch the rest of the concert. i think the strings and the co were very nice! very grand! the nyps kids SO CUTE! we were all screaming in the artist louge"SO CUTE! SO CUTE!" then mellissa was like: "RELAX MAN! THEY'RE JUST KIDS!" -.- waliao. damn amused by her lah. then haha! after the co me pat lorriane and jannabel rushed out on stage to carry perc instrus THEN WE REALISED THAT IT WASNT THE INTERMISSION YET. then gary tang was like" what are you'all doing on stage! get off the stage!" oh man! damn malu lah! =x
then after intermission we went back to school. on the bus mellissa hui juan jasmine jiaying and i were damn high. we kept singing rubbish. then mellissa damn freaked out by jasmine cause jasmine decided to love mellissa. HAHA.
after shifting percussion instrus me jasmine and hui juan went to kap to have supper. then we kept bitching about stuffs. haha. OH OH. guo chang is going to be our band teacher in charge next year. the "MR CANNOT-CLOSE-HIS-MOUTH GUY." damn funny lah! cause i keep mixing him up with mr lim kok boon which is the "MR CANNOT-OPEN-HIS-MOUTH GUY." damn funny lah! then we kept laughing like siao for like 5-10 minutes NON STOP. then everybody in kap were like staring at us lah. omg damn amusing. haha!
yay i think our seniors damn nice. but passing down's coming and im going to miss sec 4s real soon. oh man. thinking back i guess i've been very mean to clara cause i always never say hi to her. =x im so sorry clara i would TRY not to do it again. ): and yes thanks for being there for me ALWAYS. (:
yay i love nycb! (: cheers!
Sunday, July 23, 2006
12:45 AM
here are the highlights of today:
-VERA SHAW'S LONG LEG
-changing rooms
-japanese funny advertisements!
-make up!
-clara
-JASMINE TAN
-HUI JUAN
-MELLISSA
-JIAYING
-NUTCASE
-cheryl
-jo
-christal!
-kai xin
-STRAWBERRY
-HONEYDEW
-kap
-stuffs on the way back to school
-screw ups
-YOUTUBES STUFF ON US
-PAT
-LIANGZHEN
-eugenia
-jasmine poon
-kexin
-da jac
-stuffs on GUO CHANG and LIM KOK BOON. HAHAHA.
-PERSIS
ok that's about it. i think i missed out alot of things but haiya. at least i know the memories still live within me. (:
i got this very empty feeling within me. it's the last concert of the year. the last concert with the sec 4s.
I WANNA CRY... ):
oh man. i think i'll really miss sec 4s. I really regret not hugging christal and clara today. I FEEL SO MEAN. oh man. i really really want to cry. OH MAN. EUGENIA I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITHOUT YOU. ya sure i still got jasmine but the sound is not there anymore! I'LL MISS YOUR LAUGHTER and your TONE. ):
i'll miss christal's FLASHING SMILE and her stupid lame jokes. and HAHA! YOUR DAMN NICE MAKE UP. (:
clara! your sudden outbursts of laughter! your funny acts, and talking to you..
all these seem to make it so final. ): i feel damn sad right now. );
but
JASMINE TAN AND HUI JUAN. I LOVE YOU GUYS.
yay. seriously being with jasmine and hui juan has changed me alot. jasmine has taught me how to be more aware of others and their feelings and hui juan, just more feelings and emotions. oh man. love you guys!
NUTCASE, DONT BE JEALOUS! I LOVE YOU TOO. (: yay thanks for helping me with my makeup! (: yay! da4 tou2 wa3 wa3. where's your darhling wushu boy? haha.
yay LOVES. the ending of the last concert of the year marks the coming to an end of this chapter of my life in band. passing down's coming.
I DONT CARE. i must hug eugenia clara christal and andrea before they leave. i'll miss them loads loads loads.
I REALLY WANNA CRY LE LARH. i shall go off now. bye.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
10:27 AM
hello people! im in esplanade now.
the band is behind me. :\ ok random.
we're all in the green room! hehheh. why green? cause there are plants in here. -.-
we're all stoning. damn ironic. come to esplanade to STONE. damn nice lah. i actually brought jason's homework BUT I BROUGHT THE ONE I ALREADY DID LAST NIGHT. so screwed! now we're going to stone. -.- i wanna ban1 instrus! ): but the truck not here yet.
ok random.
oh nanyang string enzem is coming in.
damn pissed lah. they gave us 2 rooms the size of a small bedroom lah! or maybe even smaller. expect band to squeeze into the 2 small rooms with big instrus! damn tragic.
WHERE IS TIANHUI AND JASMINE! ):
im seriously bored. yay i should go to ivle and study. bye
Friday, July 21, 2006
10:37 PM
21 more hours to nanyang glitters.
band's the opening item for nanyang glitters. so jiayou.
jiayou to everyone performing tmr! (;
i am very amused by my seniors.
look at this!
"
Eer Ling is not joining us ): I seriously miss her and I think if i were to rank the top 10 nicest people I have ever met, she will be in the list. Ok, not say I have met alot of people from all walks of life but she's real nice (: and she's pretty. 29 years old, can ask us for her number. Thank you very much (:
HAHA. I am very amused by myself.
Gosh, I sound retarded."-jasmine tan
HAHA. after i read that part in her post i got super amused and kept laughing to myself like shit lah! haha! (: damn retarded!
then look at this!
"
You know I should stop wishing that I am a rich man's daughter.cause it almost came true and it wasn't as nice as expected.
I mean HAHA :D after bass lesson today and while I was walking down the stairs, I was hoping that I have a chaffeur. and right THEN, a guy (in the car) said, "Hello! Want a ride?" and I was shocked? Yup and I said no it's ok in a very.. what-the-hell way. and it was Siewying's dad for goodness sake. HAHA. Omg. I was damn freaked out la.But cause I never see her dad before though they always send me home. Yah, I just see his back la." - jasmine tani think damn loser lah! like everytime my dad always send her home and SHE DOESNT KNOW WHO MY DAD IS. oh man. damn loser. HAHA. (: i think jasmine very scandal. i mean she can say like "SIEWYING I LOVE YOU." to me and then turn around to liang zhen and say "LIANGZHEN WO3 AI4 NI3." then the next second you hear : "I LOVE PEA!" that type of thing. i think damn amusing lah! haha. horns people also! i am so very amused by chai jiaying and nutcase after band today lah! cause we had to bring SCARF, SAFETY PINS, SECURITY PASS, AND MAKE UP for tmr. then chai jiaying, being the section leader of horns was asking nutcase: "NUTCASE! WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO BRING TMR? "nutcase: "eh wait arh. -very slowly- MYSELF, scarf, security pass...."shimin: "eh band, for sec 1s, those in bolero have to audition for national anthem for friday also.. ya."jiaying: "QUICK NUTCASE! what do we have to bring?"nutcase: "scarf..."jiaying: "you say scarf already lah!"rouhui: "hahaha! nvm it's ok. she got limited memory. DORY MAH."nutcase: "oh really arh. wait arh. scarf, MYSELF, ....."jiaying: "orh nutcase you dunno! FAIL."nutcase: "OI. ONE WRONG ONLY MAH. LIKE THAT ALSO FAIL MEH."jiaying: 'ORH NUTCASE FAIL. ORHH...."im damn amused lah. by the way they say stuffs. haha. eeeeyur. tmr we have to put MAKE UP for both rehearsals and actual concert. damn disgusting lah! GROSS. and tmr im planning to do homework at the esplanade. how cool is that. -.- DAMN TRAGIC. ): yay. im quite excited about the thing tmr. very random. but hey, IT'S ESPLANADE. then esplanade was designed to have 100 people backstage. tmr we have almost 700 people backstage. damn amazed. I CANT FINISH MY HOMEWORK. ): but yay look on the bright side: TMR'S THE LAST TIME WE NEED TO PLAY THE STUPID BOLERO. (: let's all play persis tmr on stage during rehearsal! oh oh! today we played persis, gelato, and pirates of the carribean! oh man. pirates was damn nice. but only sec 3s and 4s played. damn cool! and i think pirates' dreams is our next SYF piece. cause ms chong said that we can work on that. WHY NOT PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN. ):ms chong says that her collegue actually modified the bass to run on wheels. so you dont have to carry the bass. just push it along with you. HOW COOL IS THAT. oh man. my post damn incoherent but nvm! im quite high. BESIDES THE FACT THAT I DONT THINK I CAN FINISH MY HOMEWORK. ): ok im out of here.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
9:18 PM
this is dedicated to my aunt agony a.k.a. CLARA LU.
hey! thanks for being there for me when i needed someone most. guessed you sort of understood me the most cause you went through some of what im going through now. it was the first time i've ever really opened up to anyone and ya, thanks alot. i realised i didnt really thank you after that conversation that night so ya! THANK YOU CLARA SOOO MUCH. YAY YOU'RE VERY NICE AND PREEEETYY. (:
p.s. if i ever look like i daoed you, i really didnt mean to okay, i just dont have the courage to say hello yet. I NEED TIME. ): sorry.
2 more days to nanyang glitters.
not really looking forward to it. just realised that modern dance has THREE items and for all THREE of them they're the main lead. wth. the next time if band is ever going to get a combined item with modern dancers again im not going to give a damn.
it's quite saddening to think that passing down is coming. guessed i really never went to take the opportunity and get to know the sec 4s really well. guess im only close to eugenia, yanting, xiao jac, and recently, clara lu. quite pathetic. ): then only know andrea and christal as the next level of "close-ness" cause i dont really talk to them le. oh man. pathetic.
i really dont want sec 4s to leave. T.T i think we'd be so damn tragic without them lah. rawrrr.
jasmine tan just freakked me out today by breaking down in front of me. i also thought of her as a strong character lah. even though i had seen her cry before, but not under this circumstances, where it's all sudden.
and i always ALWAYS freak out when i see seniors cry. like ALWAYS. :/
ok this is so incoherent. i shall finish jason's homework, do art, do geog script, study science and geog before sleeping tonight. which is sort of impossible. :/
bye people.
yay CLARA LU IS NICE. (:
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
7:21 PM
today we had rehearsals at
the esplanadeTHE ESPLANADE MAN. THE ESPLANADE.please gasp.
-GASPS-it's like
SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOO COOOOOOOOOL to be performing at the esplanade.
SUPER COOL. exciting!
his thought never really come across my mind before but it certainly slapped me when i was on the bus to esplanade this morning.
WE'RE GONNA PERFORM AT THE ESPLANADE GIRL. THE ESPLANADE.yeah man. feels so grand.
but this morning was so screwed for me! supposed to report by 7 i reached only at 7.20. then they were banning instrus already. so i went to change into my FUGLY BLACK TOP AND BLACK PANTS. hot can. then ran into the band room to take my bass, change into band shoes and banned instrus intot the big truck downstairs. then realised that my bow was upstairs. SO CRAP. then the band room was already locked. then luckily CHAI JIAYING realised that she left the consent forms upstairs and went to get the keys to the bandroom. then we ran upstairs to get my boe, our rosin, and our consent forms. on the bus got our passes to the esplanade. yay so cool. but we werent very high yet. hrms.
then when we reached esplanade, we were like exploring A SMALL PART of the BIG BIG ESPLANADE and we were already like "WOAH SO COOL. SO BIG SO GRAND." that kind of thing! i love the technology! they got this flat tv on the wall which shows what's happening on stage! so cool! (:
then the loading area! the truck could come all the way in to let us load the things easier so that we dont have to carry the instrus up and down! so cool right! then went to our holding area to settle down. then went to set up and went backstage. the backstage damn big! woah! but got alot of stuff there. then we were waiting for theatre people to set up the extension for the stage and
WE PLAYED PERSIS, PHANTOM, GELATO AND INCREDIBLES. persis damn nice lah! but basses so slack! ONLY I PLAY. -.- not fun one.
YAY PERESIS! (: then we went on stage. quite a dissappointment cause we thought that the concert hall would be quite big. but it was almost the same length as vch, except maybe bigger by bit, but not really much. but it had 4 stories of audience seats, then the stage was 1 and a half times our audi stage and a bit broader. THEY HAD CHOIR RISERS. damn nice! damn high lah! AND THEY HAD BASS STOOLS. but we didnt use them cause the seating position was damn unglam. so we decided not to use the bass stools. THE LIGHTING EFFECTS AND THE SOUND SYSTEM DAMN NICE. super cool. they even got ultra violet light for lightings can! what more can you want! (:
oh oh. and esplanade people damn nice! they help you carry stuffs and open doors when they see you not being able to handle. then got this man saw that the bass stool was too high for JASMINE TAN then he came around and asked: "girl, is the stool too high for you?"
HAHA. jasmine was damn insulted but that guy very nice! (:
then urrgh! so pissed with my fugly top! im never going to wear it anymore! sylvia and clara look damn nice in their outfit. and clara lu damn tall! she was so tall oriiginally and SHE STILL GO AND WEAR THOSE SUPER HIGH HEELS. omg i feel so damn short.
rawrrr who got black heels can lend me please!!!????
and yay we got colouful bright shiny scarfs of red yellow blue and green, (i got blue) which we needed for our performance. but they made us tie until so damn ugly! like some cheapo people! ): but i dont mind keeping the scaf after the performance! i need one. (:
rehearsal was quite sucky as in the whole thing. i just dont see the point. but standing on the esplanade stage is grand! (: yay. i just want that concert feeling to come back. ):
omg. i sound like im pms-ing. what the.
then other random stuffs happened. then we went back to school. jasmine hui juan pea and i were super high on the bus. because we were taking stupid videos and retarded pictures. hui juan look damn retarded can! damn funny lah. was laughing like siao.
then when we came back, jasmine and i slacked and ponned IT. heeai and joey ponned with us. cause we were eating lunch. HEE. strings gown damn nice! hee ai and joey look damn nice in the gown lah! then heeai is obsessed with PEOPLE'S TUMMY. she molested me like dunno how many times le! then we were talking about stuffs that should not be said here. HAHA. SHHH DONT BITCH. lalala.
then went for cip. quite crap but heck. after cip me yiwei yixian and jasmine went to causeway to shop around a bit then went home.
yay! i think nerds are cool but SADISTS ARE COOLER! (: YAY SADISTS ARE COOL LIKE ME! AS USUAL. (:
ESPLANADE! TRES LOVES.<33we should play PERSIS in the ESPLANADE instead of stupid bolero. COMEON MAN. SPREAD THE LOVE. (: i want to perform there again!
ok homework here i come. ):
Monday, July 17, 2006
9:24 PM
what's left:
-geog sia
-science sia
-lit circle
-lit ppt
-art.
-chinese huo2 dong4
-read lit handout. ANNOTATE.
-study GEOG.
-study HISTORY
-study SCIENCE on GRAVITY
-revise maths STATS
-revise maths INDICES
-study maths STANDARD FORM
-revise maths GRAPHS. (someone can soooo teach me this topic. i cant do it! ): )
-maths ws 8.2 corrections
-jason's maths set on inequalities
-jason's leftovers
-jason's notes for physics
-jason's notes for bio
-jason's notes for chem
-jason's sec 4 o level maths stack
-jason's sec 1 revision maths stack
-jason's FIVE sets of science ws on forces-jason's other FIVE sets of science ws on forces
-jason's FIVE units of maths
-jason's one chapter of maths
-jason's physics notes (the one lent to eugene.)
what i need to do by today:
-8.2 corrections
-jason's FIVE sets of science
-lit handout. ANNOTATE.
-study maths indices
-start on standard form.
urgh. i suck man.
im sorry but im not posting about life right at the moment, seeing that there's no point anymore.
12:23 AM
BLANK SIEWYING HAS TO DO :-geog sia-science sia-lit circle-lit ppt-maths ws 8.3-art.-chinese -chinese huo2 dong4-science practical ws-read lit handout. ANNOTATE.-jason' s 2 more sets of science ws-jason's maths set on fators-jason's maths set on inequalities-jason's leftovers-jason's notes for physics -jason's notes for bio-jason's notes for chem-jason's sec 4 o level maths stack-jason's sec 1 revision maths stack-jason's NINE sets of science ws on forces-jason's FIVE units of maths-jason's one chapter of maths-jason's physics notes (the one lent to eugene.)yay. i can like seriously die now.
without you behind me i dont know where to go.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
10:10 PM
Fort Minor - Where'd You Go? LyricsWhere'd you go?I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Daniel Powter- Free LoopI'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But i dont know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough, i need sun when it leaves the day
Hey yeah Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright i realised that i dont really look like the emo type so nobody actually believes i can be emo.
but hey world. i am emo now. im worse than a emo. happy?
i think im going to close my blog soon cause nobody really gives a damn.
freak.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
11:19 PM
actually i was feeling moody all day today.
i cried like 5-6 times. what do you expect.
i was quite surprised when my eyes werent swollen or red for chinese drama production tonight. wore the pair of earrings which lynn and liuyi got for me. (: yay. sok and liuyi said it suited me but jasmine was like: "i dont like earrings that are longer than my face." -.-
went to meet up with jasmine to go to school together. JASMINE was late. THEN SHE WEAR UNTIL LIKE THAT SOMEMORE. why! why like that!!!! HAIYO. then she doesnt like SHIRTS THAT FIT HER. she very weird lah! like liuyi like that. haha!
then went to school together. it was fun talking or sort of bitching with jasmine. (: it helps us destress you know. just feel very comfortable talking to her. cause it's like you can talk about anything without thinking if what you said hurt her cause she's not that sensitive and she's such a child ar heart! haha! (:
the performance was good. i loved the giants! SO CUTE! then the banner they made. I SAW BALLY! (: then the third one was quite solemn. when the guy screamed me and jasmine got a shock and we wanted to scream lah! damn scary! then the chinese dancers were so beautiful!!!!!! they were so graceful and elegant UNLIKE SOME OTHER PEOPLE.
what touched me most was THE ENDING! where everyone came out on stage to take a bow. i should have gave them a standing ovation. jasmine and i were really touched by everybody who had put in an effort to make this a sucess. we could actually feel the burning passion in them. i was so touched i wanted to cry and SOK ACTUALLY CRIED. after the performance, we went on stage to find lynn and give her flowers and she was so emotional. we hugged each other and cried like siao i dont care cause after this CHINESE DRAMA IS GOING TO BE A PERFORMING ARTS CCA. oh man. that's like so great! im so so so so so so so happy for them.
extras: saw joanna, sylvia and clara lu. sylvia looked damn pretty and hot lah. but jasmine said she looked like a high class ______. but still! i think she damn zai3 lah! do you know that she actually acheives good grades for exams, practice alot for band and is the band major, but still actually finds time to CLUB GO OUT AND SHOP LIKE THERE'S NO TMR. oh man oh man. pro.
then liuyi said that i look very girly! O.O very girly meh!
my greatest regret was that in band, we can never touch the audience with our music the way chinese drama did but only touch ourselves. we can never display the passion with our music like how chinese drama did tonight but only feel the passion building within us. we can never influence the audience with our love for our cca but only ouselves.
and for that i respect chinese drama. (:
congrats to your sucess tonight. it was really a great performance. im sure your teachers are proud of you.
my sis just came back from ndp and you know what? her goodie bag was so much better than ours. I NEED HER BAG DAMN IT. mine's TORN. ):
Friday, July 14, 2006
11:03 PM
i feel damn guilty.
i dunno why. it's probably because the people around me are so so upset and i cant do anything to cheer them up.
i feel so damn helpless. urrgh.
i feel damn stressed cause tmr im attending chinese drama performance, next friday im going for ri concert, next saturday im performing for nanyang glitters, then the next next friday im probably going for army daze.
so what's the big deal?
the big deal is that we have lots of tests and homework and i have 8 hours of tuition every sunday. then the amount of homework from jason is more than killing. aargh.
yay i think i should really go and commit suicide. and get buried in a glass coffin with yellow tulips! (: hahas so fun!
-.- sadist.
oh hoho. i saw nice roses today! so nice! (: errrrrrr. random.
aaargh why so moody woody woody. ):
i shall end with some amusing facts:
1. (BEAN! (: ) MRS SURELY TEAR. quotes:"gir! why is your ankle socks at your ankle?!?"
2. MR PAUL TAN. quotes: "girl! why you stand until like that! cannot stand in the row meh! got parallex error isit!"
3. MR CALVIN TAN. quotes: "class, please look behind. you see that computer? it's covered. cause it's dead."
4. MR CALVIN TAN. whoa. this guy seriously thinks he's a fairy. lets see.
-tablet pc suddenly shuts off and the projector went black-
class:"ORH MR TAN! your computer spoil! yay no more lesson!"
-mr tan presses the power switch for the monitor.-
mr tan: "DING! see! the computer's alive again due to my magical powers."
class: -.-"""" "WOW! SO COOL! oh please oh please show us somemore magic tricks."
mr tan: "wait arh." -goes to powerpoint presentation and clicks for slide show- "DING! see! magic again! with help from my magic wand!"
oh my. the lamest teacher i've EVER SEEN please.
why does nanyang have such weird teachers?
haiyo. just hope that everyone will cheer up ok? (:
p.s. thanks tianhui jasmine kexin jasmine nutcase lynn liuyi sok and pea for bring so nice to me lately. thanks! (:
BLANK SIEWYING HAS TO DO :-geog sia-science sia-lit circle-lit ppt-maths ws 8.3-art.-chinese -chinese huo2 dong4-science practical ws-read lit handout. ANNOTATE.-jason' s 2 more sets of science ws-jason's maths set on fators-jason's maths set on inequalities-jason's leftovers-jason's notes for physics -jason's notes for bio-jason's notes for chem-jason's sec 4 o level maths stack-jason's sec 1 revision maths stackyay im dying here.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
11:04 PM
im sooo sooooo soooooo mooody.
i dont know. it's just the blues that hit me.
geog test today. so screwed. i lost 4 marks already because of one bloody question. i forgot that savannahs were grasslands. -.-
then chinese debate! we lost to 209. ): so sad!
band ended 2 hours earlier today. :/ and you know what? we're marching for march past in school on national day. omg. so screwed. how are tubas and double basses going to march i ask you? rawrrr. it's soo soo wroongg. and nutcase was like laughing away. rawrrr. not funny kay. i seriously dont know how we're going to march lah.
i realised my black blouse for nanyang family concert is soo sooo fugly. it's like tooo big for me? urrghh. i shouldnt have rushed to buy it and went to mango with tianhui. screwed man. screwed.
i suck at indices! urgh. i cant do a single thing for 8.2 . im sooo sooo dead.
i seriously want to break down and cry.
can you guys stop ostrasizing us? what have we done wrong man. it's like so obvious you're ostrasizing us even though you dont say it. how would you feel if you were us? seriously, what did we do but practised like shit and bring good music for you. but you dont appreaciate it. and you expect us to bring ourselves to greater heights with this kind of support from our school, family and friends lah. how do you expect us to just ignore your ostrasizing and carry on. it's like trying to do something you are really obsessed with and yet the whole world is telling you to stop cause you're just some bloody idiot who's obsessed with something stupid. urgh. RAWRRRRR.i seriously dont know what to do anymore.
i want to watch pirates of the carribean! ): but i dont know if i should go with my class or my sectionmates! ):
i shall end with something rather amusing i found on someone's blog.
HELLO PEOPLE I am very honoured to have with me today, our mei nv school BEAN, Mrs Surely Tear.As we all know, Mrs. Surely Tear has been very popular among us nanyang girls, and I believe it would be greatly beneficial if she manages to take time off to guest blog, here at esquisse-. Who wouldn't want to listen to what our great disciplinarian has to say? :)Good afternoon girs. I hoop you girs wil understand what arm saying. Soon, you girs will be able to sigh up for the spectacle auctions. Please member. And I nid you girs to inference your frence to raise their hand when told to kip quiet.Apprause!pretty amusing ya? im sure that those in nanyang know who she is lah. she seriously talks like that ok! with that fake accent. -.-
ok tata!
oh ya! i like the song for the advert on oscar awards on teevee! the horn part is so nice!
Monday, July 10, 2006
11:59 PM
oh goshdont tell me.i think im crushing on you.
10:41 PM
jonathan rhys meyers is sooooo cute! huh huh? what did i say? i didnt say anything. (:
ok random. anyway. ITALY WON! LALALA. yesterday still heard that france got alot of supporters! haha. at jason's place, benjamin and justin were supporting france lorh. then wilson and i were supporting italy. then benjamin was telling justin to place his bets on both. cause if either of them win, he'll still earn 3 bucks. o.O
ITALY! -waves hands around madly.-
this morning quite a number of people were quite hyper. e.g. LEE SOGGY, GRACE LEONG, and LEE SHI HUI.
i loved shi hui's cheesecake! the first cheesecake i dared to eat kay! so nice! thanks so much!
oh yes! and i got the phantom of the opera recording le. BY OUR VERY OWN NYCB! (: yes yes! love it loads.
BUT I STILL PREFER 7TH NIGHT AND PERSIS! it's teh love! <3 LOVE LOVE LOVES.
oh oh yes.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LE YING (7th july!)and EUGENE (8th july! )sorry eugene that i couldnt go and watch movie with you. really really sorry. ): and yes. i havent treated you yet. dont be angry ok?
ok. i got to go. there'll be less posts cause i dont really have much time. sorry guys. ):
it's the sad sad tingling sensation that no one will ever comprehend.
cause it's a BAND feeling about stuffs.
LOVES. <3 (:
p.s. sorry benjamin OH for ignoring you when you were in times of desperation.
p.p.s. jiayou eugene and liuyi and kevan for com and matches.
p.p.p.s. liuyi, kexin and benjamin OH, please please please cheer up ok?
12:34 AM
i was tortured for the last 3 hours.
tortured by my own family.
no joke but i really want to go and commit suicide right now.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
12:06 AM
22 july 2005
passing down25 july 2005
first national anthem conducted by new BM. 16 dec 2005
APPASSIONATA IX25 june 2006
APPASSIONATA X7 july 2006
elections!22 july 2006
family concert!it's
THE SEVENTH NIGHT OF JULY again!
breathe
the seventh night of july air.
haiyo. actually im quite pissed with myself for one thing- for not doing anything special on the 7th night of july except having band elections and listening to 7th night of july like alot of times. ): actually i wanted to play 7th night of july! and had some section outing after band but my mum didnt allow! ):
oh wells. tmr's not going to be a better day either. i cant go watch pirates of the carribean with eugene! cause my mum dont allow. and eugenia wants to watch it as a section! but i think i wont even get to watch the movie in the end. MY MUM WOULDNT ALLOW. T.T
and i wanted to go swimming but fell asleep once i got home and couldnt wake up again. ):
anyway, congrats to the new comm and the new section leaders! (: yes we shall work harder together to be a betterand more bonded band and for
a gold with honours for SYF 07. (: yes. we can do it.
and i must learn to be less noisy and fidgety during band. =x
3rd time listening to 7th night of july. time flies so fast. having elections today brought back memories of last year's elections and passing down. it seemed so much like yesterday. all the emotional stuff. but the emotional stuff didnt happen today of course. haha. cause there was no passing down.
rawrrr i got to go le. congrats once again to the new comm of 06 07. (:
i need to stop getting too emotional.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
9:22 PM
oh ok. so school started yada. BORING. i feel like falling asleep liao lah! rawrr. especially for lang arts chinese and science. i think mrs koh, and li lao shi and mr ng all very pissed with me. cause im only half listening in class lah.
the exquisitee phenomenon in the audi.today we were dismissed at 1 cause after school we were supposed to have the full nanyang family concert runthrough. then band was the first item.
after lunch we reported at 1.15 at band room. then we set up and went down to the audi for rehearsal. then when we reached the audi, for no reason the band just started playing persis. and then we played the whole thing lah. SUPER NICE! ESPECIALLY HORNS CLARINETS TRUMPETS AND EUPHOS. damn damn nice! SO TOUCHED! especially by melanie's solo! and the eupho's solo! jasmine and i were enjoying the whole songs lah! then i was feeling ok until horn's solo and I SUDDENLY FELT LIKE CRYING. like it's so nice! and concert's over and we'll never get to play persis ever again! and all the concert memories started flowing back to me and all the emotions kept at bay before, during and after the concert just spilled out of me during melanie's solo in the audi. i just started tearing like mad and quickly turned away lah. luckily jasmine didnt even noticed. then thee snare's solo, CHRISTAL DAMN ZAI3. haha. she played on the audi's pillar cause no snare drum mah! haha! then the whole band started laughing and HORNS! THEY SOUNDED SO BEAUTIFUL. the emotions were just overwhelming and the feeling was so grand cause the other performing arts were there staring at US PRO-ERS. (: then felt damn nice lah! just wanted to yell: "LOOK AT BAND MAN. LOOK AT US. WE'RE SO ZAI3. AND PERSIS JUST BRINGS US TOGETHER. (: WE BOND THROUGH MUSIC. " oh man!
nycb! persis! LOVES LOVES LOVES LOVES LOVES! we had rehearsal. was quite pissed about alot of stuffs lah. like how the nanyang staff ostracize us, and how some teacher just pms like crazy. i really dont know what to feel now lah. im just so overwhelmed with feelings cause im damn pissed like siao and im abit high and VERY EMOTIONAL and very very touched. what's going on!
i feel damn sad for band can. we practised so so hard and yet we get no credit at all. we're so invicible to everyone lah.
thanks liuyi, kevan and eugene for letting me thrash things out. thanks alot. (:
i cried myself to sleep again. and this time, it's tears of anguish.